 I don't know. (I've just noticed it's the same title as a HOTT broadcast so it's probably where I got it from though not consciously) Allow me however to postulate a few thoughts on the issue, bearing in mind our current prospect of entering into a second universal Lockdown & my current frame of mind thus far. I've thought of taking up arms & reclaiming the island I live on, but I'm not from here, I can't think of anyone who'd join me as yet, I haven't found anyone who fully understands my Blog or my videos outside of Freemasonry, plus I can't think of somewhere to march upon & occupy apart from the airport, bearing in mind the pigdogs sat in the States Of Jersey (our Parliament) over here are products of a Democratic system & thus can't be in charge of anything. Besides, I'm not a Communist, so wouldn't qualify for any underhand ammo-assistance by the usual gun-runners who can always be traced back to London in any event. So that's that one. Peaceful demonstration? I haven't convinced enough people of the dire significance of what's going on. Back home? No chance, besides, I'd feel like a fraud walking in & telling others what to do, maybe London where there seems to be a bit of logically organised resistance, although I couldn't trust the organisers from what I've seen unless I met them maybe. So as it stands I'm stuck here, America possibly, but again I'd feel like a fraud, as Andy Kaufman said once; 'But he doesn't know the territory'. Right then, there must be something? 'In the event that I am reincarnated, I would like to return as a deadly virus, to contribute something to solving overpopulation' - Prince Phillip (1988) I once posted a video with Manly Hall stating; 'It's stronger than anything anyone can bring against it', refering to the current religious SYSTEM we're under. Obviously I disagree with Hall, otherwise I'd probably have joined the Masons long since. What I believe is, he & his ilk have polluted, edited & misrepresented the teachings of the Bible in order to neutralise it's message, Gods message. I am not a Bible-Basher, what I am suggesting is they are though, & for the reasons I've already stated in my blogs on the subject of religion. Something which has come through in the religious beliefs of the ancients & moderns & cannot be altered is that the entity, being or power known as Satan, whatever it is presides over the earth, in our day & since the time of the writing of the Bible, so we can't expect things to go our way too often, maybe it will change in the future I don't know. However I've seen enough goodness in people to understand people aren't evil, we're just flawed, & by that measure, we're capable of anything, we all know it. Be that as it may, what I suggest I do is to keep on doing what I've been doing for the last 7yrs & try to relay my ongoing understanding of the doctrines of the Mystery Schools who DO run our planet, so that whosoever wishes can walk around with a clearer understanding of what's going on around them, including myself. I'm not saying anything radical, or being sensationalist or anything like that, I've studied politics at a high level, only to find out later on it's true nature, so I'm qualified to say whatever I like, even if it's wrong or crap, others can be the judge. Satanism incidentally is one of the Mysteries (Secret Societies) creeds, for good or evil as they say, the 'ends justify the means' etc. What I've come to believe is, this world is a test, a temperer for want of a better word, buy into it all you like, nothing is going to change the fact we're not from here & we're not going to be here in the long run, thus we don't belong here, someone else runs the joint anyhow. So from my perspective, it's imperative we be ourselves, irrespective of social pressures, which are increasingly, exponentionally bearing down on us. Very soon it'll be illegal to write like this, if things proceed on their current path, future generations will find it impossible to think objectively (see Anyn Rands philosophy), so we must hold up our end of the bargain, whatever the cost, always bearing in mind; things that belong to this world all turn to dust anyhow, ashes to ashes as they say, whereas your spirit is eternal, from what I've learned. Anyone writing on the subjects relayed on here & in my videos will tell you with a heavy heart they did not want to be proven right, in fact it's much worse for us having an understanding of what's happening, happened, going to happen & why. Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing what I do, only to look on Facebook & realise the alternative doesn't bear thinking about; 'Vinny's eating a banana' ....for an extreme example. For all his notoriety, degeneracy & indulgences, a quote from Agnes Varda about the Rock Star Jim Morrison has always stayed with me, she said of him; 'He never uttered a superfluous word'. In other words, the chap had conviction. I must do the same.
 'Drunkenness will be prohibited' - Protocol 23 Of the Elders Of Sion  Having watched & estimated the situation, I'd sumarise our current spot of bovver in this wise. If there's a virus going round killing people it's been engineered to do so, AIDS, cancer & the other plagues of history tells me this & it's to coincide with the symbolical events depicted in The Book Of Revelations, i.e. Biblical PROPHECY. In this instance, one of the 7 Plagues, you can take it or leave it, I've done multiple videos & Blogs on the subject & from what I've gleaned from the response, I take it most are in conjunction with my opinions, those who aren't haven't articulated anything to suggest otherwise, so I can only assume they're in total agreement with me & are only sent by their Orders to throw something of a Spaniard in the works, as John Lennon used to say. All these lethal Flu plagues are said to stem from China; This deadly virus (meaning 'Venom of a serpent'), the effects of which are destroying the world, rose in the EAST at the Winter Solstice (2019) & is called Corona......OK. To move into the language of the movers & shakers, the SUN rises in the east, & the sun is the foremost symbol of the Pagan Mystery Schools & has been since the dawn of time. However, it's the life-giving principle of the suns rays (corona/aurora), the fecundating properties/powers/principles, magnetism, the 'Astral Light' etc.... is also known as LUCIFER in the Temples without windows, & this is the primary object of Pagan worship. Moreover, they teach we all have a metaphorical sun within us & it's this they wish to resurrect, corona means crown which is the meaning of Kether at the pinnacle of the Tree Of Life in the Qabalah & Kether represents REASON, cited as the Messiah in the Mysteries (Age Of Reason for e.g.), thus all the symbols are in place for our initiation into the Cultus Aurorum. Perhaps you can now understand why the tomb of Akhenaten's son, Tutankhamen, was opened (& robbed) with such fanfare in 1922, as Pharaoh Akhenaten was the great reformer of the Ancient Mystery religion in Egypt which has come down to us today. There are other factors to consider also that may be the source of the name, one is, human society has been what's termed as; 'Patriarchal' practically since its inception with a few exceptions. However, as I've shown in my Aquarius blog, the coming human family is to be dominated by a union between the male & the female qualities in what's known as the Hermetic Marriage, or the marriage of the Sun & Moon. To the Mysteries, patriarchal societies are referred to as 'Solar', as in the solar cult of Christianity, i.e. societies based on mythological aspects of the sun, thus, the male is being brought to heel & his legacy remembered as one of violence, control, capitalistic etc...even though women are just as bad.....er, you get the jist. The most influenzial body responsible for proliferating the cell-structure of Communistic organisations & externalising the teachings of the Pagan Mystery Schools was & is the Golden Dawn, formed in London in 1888. The Golden Dawn was founded by Freemasons although it was developed under the umbrella of Rosicrucianism. From it's womb issued Zionism, Communism, Feminism, Racism, or any other ism ism ism (Lennon again) you'd care to think of. Madame Blavatsky, in her Secret Doctrine, written in London in 1888 (the year of Jack The Ripper) explained she'd recieved her ideas from the Hidden Masters. Many notorious characters from history are said to have held the teachings of this book as spiritual guides including Hitler & Sirhan Bishara Sirhan, both I believe were brainwashed, & in the case of Hitler, by Golden Dawn member Aleister Crowley, take it or leave it. Other characteristics of this latest Plague are definite tenets of the Mysteries, including the Mask. The mask was dramatically worn in the Initiatory ceremonies of ancient times to represent the persona, something other than the individual, equatable to our modern day as the ego, & the ego is the something contrived by modern day materialistic living (according to the Mysteries) that needs to be eradicated, thus peoples revulsion towards wearing one will ultimately correspond to the rejection of the ego. The modern idea of the ego was popularised by Psychologist Sigmund Freud, as was Psych-ology itself incidentally, I haven't gone fully into it yet but I'll wager & I know he can be traced directly to the Mystery Schools, as can his Gnostic/Alchemist collaborator & once disciple Carl Jung. From marxist.org we learn; 'Alienation is the process whereby people become foreign to the world they are living in. The concept of alienation is deeply embedded in all the great religions & social & political theories of the civilised epoch, namely, the idea that some time in the past people lived in harmony, & then there was some kind of rupture which left people feeling like foreigners in the world, but some time in the future this alienation would be overcome & humanity would again live in harmony with itself & Nature. Marx had a specific understanding of the very sharp experience of alienation which is found in modern bourgeois society.' Isolation/Alienation....same thing to me, the cure of course being Communism.  The travel industry has been dealt a mortal wound, in the U.N. document; Agenda 21 (7-7-7), heavy emphasis is layed upon regions, in his book; Behold A Pale Horse, Bill Cooper told how the world would be regionalised, based on documents he'd read whilst in US Naval Intelligence in the 1970's. Unmitigated immigration has been the policy of all developed countries since WWII...Why? (Left; the Theosophical Society logo, formed 1875. Crown means 'Corona' as you know & Virus originally meant 'Venom of a snake'. Other symbols denoted here are the Swastika & the Star of David....Nice) There's a concept in the Mystery Schools of the 'Casting of the Molten Sea', wherein the peoples of the earth are to be intermingled, homogenised etc. They firmly believe the darker peoples are of a lower class or developed state, see the writings of Carl Jung for this, he refers to black people as 'Niggers', as did Karl Marx, Manly Hall called them 'Modern Savages', so don't be fooled, the mass immigration is to interbreed us. To go down the conventional route for a moment, here in the UK & I'm sure everywhere else as well, after a supposed recovery back to negligible levels from a peak in April/May, positive tests for the virus are soaring once more after a 10-fold increase in testing & the government allow millions of students back to school, college & university, strange eh? Stay Safe? Security is what they mean, as in what one would find in a Siberian Gulag (can't remember the guy who said that), or perhaps Social Security, which is a principle of modern slavery. You get the picture & it's all done via Alchemy, the transmutation of ignorance (our current state according to them) into wisdom, or base metal into Gold to use the jargon of the social securities, er Secret Societies sorry. Mind Control in other words, Psychology was & is used to experiment upon people & document the results thereof, using techniques such as drugs, hypnosis, suggestion etc on a global scale. Many of these techniques are employed in the Media, Advertising & so on, so as to predictively programme the masses (us) into gratuitously adopting certain modes of conduct, all may I add, corresponding to the tenets & beliefs of the Mystery Schools. One of the pre-eminent movers in this field was Freuds nephew Edward Bernays. As more & more businesses close, the individual is primed to seek help from the govenment who are a bunch of actors, in the UK the visible head of government is the affable if bungling Boris, all round western 'Democracies' I see the same pattern of ineptness flowing, i.e. people are being led into a false sense of security. We see the pan-demic has landed in the middle of the greatest environmental disaster the world has ever faced...linked? Possibly. At the forefront of the fight against Climate Change (there's that transmutation word again) in the UK is the noble London Institution of the Royal Society, in the form one of its sons, the saintly Sir David Attenborough; 'Sir David explained, "We are going to have to live more economically than we do. & we can do that &, I believe we will do it more happily, not less happily. & that the excesses the capitalist system has brought us, have got to be curbed somehow....That doesn't mean to say that capitalism is dead & I'm not an economist & I don't know. But I believe the nations of the world, ordinary people worldwide, are beginning to realise that greed does not actually lead to joy.' - https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-54268038 Meanwhile, outside Sir Davids publicly-funded to the hilt bubble; 'Death sentence' Liz Cameron, chief executive of the Scottish Chambers of Commerce, said: "These (Covid) measures will sound the death knell for businesses across the hospitality sector, especially pubs & bars.' - https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-scotland-54456825 & The Royal Society is the most notable scientific advisory body helping the government in the fight against Covid 19. Incidentally, the Royal Society, which is the direct product of the Rosicrucians/Freemasonry, was the brains behind the British Empire & Slave Trade. (See also 'Vaccinations' below) https://royalsociety.org/news/2020/03/coronavirus-covid-19/ https://royalsocietypublishing.org/doi/10.1098/rsnr.1999.0075 The idea for Lockdown may be found in Mozarts opera The Magic Flute (1791) believe it or not. The opera was actually a political satire, dramatising the very real war between the governments of what is now Germany, then The Holy Roman Empire, the Austro Hungarian Empires & Freemasonry which still resonates today as it predicts also a future Utopia ran by the Hidden Masters. However it would have been most keenly felt in Mozarts day by the events of the French Revolution, brought about by Freemasonry, as one of the operas protagonists, Pamina represents Marie Antoinette. Another actor in the show is Papageno, who represents the public, the masses, the rabble, the great unwashed etc.., he has to have a padlock placed upon his lips to end his incescent, boastful babbling, what happened this year was just the first phase I'd imagine, what's coming will be a further extention of draconian measures by all governments coupled with an accelerated death rate of some kind, it always does with these people as their gods require human sacrifice. Bill Cooper said on umpteen occasions; 'The Mob is to be shackled'.
Above; Front pages of the BBC's webpage, nearly all about a foreign countries supposed head politician having flu It should have been a footnote at best, but no, Americas Presidents bout of the sniffles dominates the boards of our country's national broadcasting company, as does the US Presidential Election, who gives a damn & why? Haven't we enough problems of our own we should be 'monitoring'? Such as; 'Undercover informants working for the police & MI5 are going to be explicitly permitted for the first time under British law to commit crimes. The unprecedented legislation to authorise & oversee crimes comes after years of unclear rules over when these agents can break the law. The law will not specify exactly which crimes can be committed. & critics are urging MPs to amend the proposed law to rule out murder & serious violence.' - BBC 24 September 2020. Another country is either going to be more powerful than you or not, whatever it is should not take precedence over your own activities, but America always does. The answer of course is that individual nations sovereignty has gone & we're now under the auspices of foreign power(s) based in a foreign land, America. We may have pulled out of European trade deals but we're still signed up to the U.N., & we were taught in Uni that the European Union gets somewhere around 70% of it's directives & regulations from the U.N. & that was in 1999 I learned that. If you notice, every country in the world acted in concert over this, social distancing (another socialist meme), Lockdowns etc... There was the occasional token show of indivduality as in the case of Sweden, however I've been to Sweden (1996) & it's socialism was striking to us all then & we knew nothing about socialism, plus we came from a highly socialised country ourselves, so it probably couldn't cope with anymore social policies anyway. If you notice also, all countries political representatives where the same uni-form......the shirt & tie, which is a rope round the neck, or perhaps a symbolic cable toe? Maybe in Africa there's a few exempt dignitaries every now & then however, this could be because of Africas basket case situation, well what do you expect after we've been robbing all their natural resources, manpower, prescious metals, livestock etc. for centuries? Besides it gives the otherwise colourless U.N. a bit of much-needed glamour. Incidentally, despite the ongoing so-called greatest threats to mankind, the Space Race is still in full operation; - https://www.gov.uk/government/news/uk-to-launch-new-international-space-collaborations Significance of the 19? I'm not sure, one posibility is that 19 is sacred to the Druids on account of it being the number of years of a Metonic (Lunar) cycle. Another thought is 1 & 9 are A & I. Covid in Gematria equals: 766: c=3 o=50 v=700 I=9 d=4....7+6+6 = 19. Or, seeing as it's their favourite book, it's always worth taking a look in The Book Of Revelations to see what Chapter 19 says; 'Defeat of the Beast & False Prophet 17 & I saw an angel standing in the sun; & he cried with a loud voice, saying to all the fowls that fly in the midst of heaven, Come & gather yourselves together unto the supper of the great God; 18 That ye may eat the flesh of kings, & the flesh of captains, & the flesh of mighty men, & the flesh of horses, & of them that sit on them, & the flesh of all men, both free & bond, both small & great. 19 & I saw the beast, & the kings of the earth, & their armies, gathered together to make war against him that sat on the horse, & against his army. 20 & the beast was taken, & with him the false prophet that wrought miracles before him, with which he deceived them that had received the mark of the beast, & them that worshipped his image. These both were cast alive into a lake of fire burning with brimstone. 21 & the remnant were slain with the sword of him that sat upon the horse, which sword proceeded out of his mouth: & all the fowls were filled with their flesh.' - KJV. From Manly Halls Apocalypse Attributed To St John (1981); 'In the Greek Mysteries, 666 is the numerical equivalent for the word which stands for animal soul, or the nature of desire. From this negative vortex in man come the impulses of avarice, ambition, greed, lust & hate. Thus man's own animal nature is the beast, & all institutions built by tyranny, oppression, & intolerance are monuments to eternal intemperance. The beast rules for a time & attempts to destroy the power of the elect. Babylon which is simply civilisation itself dominated by selfishness must fall....' (So nothing significant there then) Well, that just leaves vaccinations. In 1991 (those numbers) Bill Cooper published Behold A Pale Horse. His book states the following;
I only know Cooper believed the programme went ahead, as did many others. I believe the cancer plague (now said to affect 50% of the world population) has been engineered & here is partial proof it indeed has; 'Cancer is a modern, man-made disease caused by environmental factors such as pollution & diet, a study review by University of Manchester scientists has strongly suggested.' - https://www.manchester.ac.uk/discover/news/scientists-suggest-that-cancer-is-man-made Other evidence points to this conclusion also, the Dr Robert Galllo mentioned below has confessed on camera to injecting people with the AIDS virus; 'A viral cause of cancer was first proposed back in 1911 by a biologist named Peyton Rous at the Rockefeller Institute' .....&; 'Among the few scientists still pursuing cancer virus research at this time was Robert Gallo, M.D., of the NCI. Gallo had been searching for viral causes of cancer since the early 1970s, when, as a practicing oncologist, he became interested in the causes of childhood leukemia' http://www.cancerresearch.org/news-publications/our-blog/august-2014/when-aids-was-a-cancer I honestly don't know what to suggest others do. As I said, it appears this place has been rigged from the beginning; 'The whole world lies in the power of the evil one' John: 19 (those numbers)....said Jesus. History tells us the richer folk of the world despise the poor; 'Any city however small, is in fact divided into two, one the city of the poor, the other of the rich. These are at war with one another.' - Plato. We have the Caste system of India, which has been adopted by the West as the 'Class' system, & developed by Freemasonry in the form of Communism. They believe society is stratified, the bottom level is known as the Proletariat, also the Rabble, as referred to in Golden Dawn member Arthur Waites A New Encyclopaedia Of Freemasonry (1921) & Hippy Philosopher Alan Watts in his 'Only Suckers Put Faith In The Future' seminar. So my advice would be to not to look to anyone else to for help, especially government as they are not there to help, they've said over & over they want us in a secure, safe environment & it doesn't involve personal freedoms. (See Aldous Huxley interview 1961) The Mysteries know all about the Bible, they actually believe their ancient members wrote it, despite them espousing the villanous of that book as the patron Saints of their Orders. So they know the craic regarding the condition of the world, it's history & the future, so they say. It will be what they call a return to the; Golden Age. Precisely when this previous Golden Age was they're not so sure however, the condition of man is to be returned to a time when he had psychic powers, people were androgynous (male/female), thus people will be self-replicating & the sexual act will be abolished. Look around you, it's now illegal in most places in the UK to have a casual sexual relationship, this is the start. As I said, Classical music portrays symbolically much of the wiles & guiles of the Pagan religion to which we shortly will be asked to accept, the name itself refers to the highest Class of society. Thus it's in our face constantly, hidden in plain sight. Above; is an elite club two of our last three Prime Ministers belonged, both David Cameron & Boris Johnson are of aristocratic lineage, as is Donald - Trump, who's name in Gaelic & Latin means; 'World Leader' - 'Triumph'. - - - - - - - - - EPIBLOG Below is taken from the Wikipedia page for the 1984 film; 'Gremlins', 'Plot Randall Peltzer, a struggling inventor, visits a Chinatown antique store in the hope of finding a Christmas present for his son Billy. In the store, Randall encounters a small, furry creature called a mogwai (Cantonese: 魔怪, "devil"). The owner, Mr. Wing, refuses to sell the creature to Randall. However, his grandson secretly sells the mogwai to Randall, warning him to remember three important rules that must never be broken: do not expose the mogwai to light, especially sunlight, which will kill it, do not let it come in contact with water, & above all, never feed it after midnight..... Steven Spielberg was the film's executive producer,' Anyone who's seen the film will attest to it's disturbing aspects, but what would we expect from Mr Spielberg?
16 Comments
Steve es
10/5/2020 11:56:06 am
Good to read your blog Vinny. I would disagree, I believe I understand all of your videos and blogs. I've read most of the books you quote from but have limited intelligence and memory, my posts tend to be frustrated outbursts. Of coarse I don't undrrstand the intricacies of the occult or bible writings etc, but who does understand all that. Like yourself I was trained by BC and that is the best education you can get, I think you will agree. Not only did he wake me up to the conspiracy but also showed what a man can be like, I endeavor to at least try to live up to that example.
Cheers Steve, this was something I needed to get off my chest so I bulldozed through it a bit, looking back it'll need smartening up a little as there's a few grammatical errors etc. Being stuck out here on this rock is a mixed blessing really, I can't stand going out in the place anymore so tend to love being able to write & do vids, I didn't at the beginning (vids) but I'm warming to the task now.
Steve
10/19/2020 10:27:16 am
Hi Vinny, None taken as they say, I knew I'd be doing peoples heads in with the Manly vids, someone recently wrote; 'Most boring channel on YT', so I asked them if I'd be getting a prize, which did the job. Yeah, I can't think what people must think of me round here, because I hate the place so much I don't want to know people, never did, don't even feel bad about it I feel so ashamed about being associated with Jersey. So I bought a beach kiosk on Feb 1st with a view to turning all that around, then we were hit with the virus, luckily all I'd learned from 12-odd years of study came into play, much of the time it was harrowing but I really think I've broke through something because of it. There's a pic of me & my little beach hut on my About age with my own little bell.....to toll!
Steve
10/20/2020 09:17:18 am
Far from boring mate, but your writing is better from my perspective, simply because it has more content, connections and detail. It was very interesting the way you located AC with respect to dates, cities, events and meetings etc.
Glen Walker
10/30/2020 11:59:46 pm
I'm so with you Vinny.... You're welcome Glen, as ever are your insightful contributions. I wish I knew what to suggest apart from stand by our beliefs, I don't think things are so bad when I think along the lines of this world being a test, both by God & those infernal priests of the Mysteries who think they are. So the worlds corrupt, at least we saw through the scam & had the courage to say as much. I'm 50 too mate!
Glen Walker
11/15/2020 04:42:14 am
Yes....
Jamlin
6/6/2021 04:51:28 am
Hey Vinny,
Cheers Jamlin, it's reassuring to get good feedback at times like these! I think I know the Sutton speech you quoted, it was just before he'd published 'Wall St & The Rise Of Hitler' in 1976. A fantastic researcher, the only modern person I think I could put on a par with Cooper.
Jamlin
6/8/2021 05:40:27 pm
Hey, yes the video is understanding history I believe. Any researcher will find great treasure in there as Bill would say. 10/7/2022 10:55:29 am
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Steve A
7/18/2023 01:36:35 pm
LUCIFER in the Temples without windows - You know by now what I say is not normal so this is going to be no different. That had to be Lucifer I had spoke to then as that beings exact words were "when are you coming back to clean our windows" obviously I had absolutely no idea what he she or whatever it is meant. I know about the cleaning up bit but never knew about that word windows as I thought it was just a very random word to come out with that infact did baffle me and has done for along time till now. Thats of course it is Lucifer - told me I was in the wrong house as well - there was a bit more said between us. It only occurred to me today probably because I'm preoccupied with other things or I'm trying to forget it all that when you illuminate this inner sun you illuminate the moon - that thing was white and bright.
Steve A
7/21/2023 12:25:15 am
I don't quite understand the question but in short I guess it's pure power - in the spiritual sense. That temple of there's that has wheels must of rolled into town quite sometime ago. I've not worked it all out yet.
Steve A
7/21/2023 02:37:23 pm
I had the same feeling back in 2019-20 regarding taking up arms but realised being on your own its realistically not possible, even if you had a plan that on paper would infact work but your then relying on others and in this day and age you know full well someone would let you down. That lead me on to alsorts of crazy ideas with so many different outcomes. My mind went into one to the point I had taken over the whole world and would of started all within the city I live. My mind became filled with you could say new forms of warfare tatics etc etc. I even worked it all out to the point whereby nobody would get hurt unless you were stupid. I even worked out how I would like society to be - a utopia. Obviously I wouldn't go talking about it as I'd be classed as a terrorist. I find that that level of knowledge is pointless because I'd never be able to put it into action. I believe you have to assend this world within your mind. I don't talk about these things although I'd like to but where am I going to find people that would like to talk about such things but not to enact such things (but you never know). I'd also like to talk with individuals that have an interest in things the otherside but I have to be realistic as I'm not going to find them type people that essentially won't be wasting my time as I believe this is where change in this world can happen via electromagnetism and other occult methods etc etc. Over time you lose interest in it all and start to forget so much of it because your essentially on your own but it is what it is plus as ive said its time for me to forget about it all anyway and get things sorted in my life as ive been without a home since middle of 2019 and its about time I get that sorted if I can. They say sometimes you can miss your calling as in it will pass you by and you won't get another chance, I made sure I grabbed my calling by the horns and never let go but I'm paying the price for that now via my situation which I'm now ready to change. I've always said to myself when I'm fixed in that respect and I'm settled I can either just forget or I can really concentrate and focus on it all properly before I do forget it all and its stuff that's totally bonkers and do feel it a shame to of gone through all what I have with it to then not be able to share it regardless if people think I'm full of shit as I don't really care about that. As ive learnt alot these passed 7 or so years there is something on my mind that's always been there since coronavirus but this is where things start to sound crazy and that's to try something I have the choice to do or not which is very Occult and I'd like to talk about that but know I'm not going to find anyone on my level with it but I don't think that really matters as such because its me thats the one to do it anyway. I just don't know. Plus my problem is ive just way to much to talk about in regards to all this stuff and I did get attacked by them for wanting a better world but I probably did provoke it due to the nature of my character as I know in terms of spirit I'm on par or infact stronger than them and I believe they knew this and this is why I struggled so much before corona came as they were definitely trying to throw me off my pursuit. Its just such a long story I'm afraid. You said if you wanna talk - here I am. Leave a Reply. |
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